Sunday, February 18, 2018

Mid Youth Crisis


25, and still, stuck in a town I always said I'd leave. 
Is this all there is for me? 
Follow in the footsteps of my parents and just... Be? 
Is this all I'm supposed to amount to? 
A simple breath upon this earth? 
A west wind so faint, no one feels its passing? 
No songs, no prose, no monuments, or fanfare? 
Just a voice that will fade along with the voices of many others who came before me; all the others who left no mark before me. 
I am a line in the sand, trying to become a bay, a pool, even a puddle, before the tide comes back to eradicate everything that I've made, everything that I am.
But here I am struggling and fighting against the rising tides, the waves that will erase me from being. 
Digging deeper and deeper, trying to peave a mark, a memory, a monument; anything except a tombstone and tears.
I am stuck. 
I am stuck trying to move, trying to create a semblance of SOMETHING, trying to touch as many lives as possible, trying to CREATE something that will REMEMBER.
25, and still, in a sea of faces, you wouldn't see me.