Void

I really do not understand
How I can be so sad
For days at a time,
For months,
And years,
And still have enough tears
To soak through pillows,
To fill up oceans,
To drown my sorrows.
I do not understand
How I can look at you
And think about leaving,
Think about disappearing,
Think about ending it all.
I do not understand
How you can still love me,
This mess of bones,
This empty shell,
This ember-less pit,
This desolate plain,
This souless void,
This haunted ghost.
I do not understand
Why I must keep fighting,
Why I must keep trying,
When I have prayed,
For years,
For it all to end.
I am tired,
My bones,
My muscles,
My lungs,
My heart,
My mind,
I am tired.
Make it end.