Things I wish I Could Tell You, But You Don't Like Words

I needed you to fight for me. 
I needed to know that if i gave up, you wouldn't. 
I needed to know if you'd be there if I break down and know what to do. 
I needed you to say something, anything. 
You should know me well enough by now. I am an open book.
I was always an open book to you. 
I never hid anything. 
I wanted to let you in, 
I wanted you to FIGHT FOR ME. 
But you didn't. 
You just let me go. 
I gave you so many chances to stop me, but you let me... 
You let me leave. 
So i left. 
And i already miss you. 
I can hardly stop crying. 
I LOVED YOU, I still do. 
But it's not like it matters that i'm hurting, too. 
And i am every bit so sorry about hurting you, 
I am sorry I gave you so much only to take it all away, 
I am sorry. 
Because I was so happy with you, you made me so happy. 
But I needed more, wanted more, 
and we both said we could not give any more than what we had planned. 
And I know you don't like talking about ANYTHING, 
but I NEED to talk. 
I need this to get out. 
I cant NOT tell you this, 
it will kill me inside. 
I love you, I'm sorry.